what was 2017 like?

2017. what a massive year, but if we look past all the news and politics, the year was still huge for me. I finished year 11, the final year of high-school and I passed greatly to do what I want in a college of my choice, but besides that good stuff, I suffered greatly with anxiety and depression that affects me now all because of bullying. All because people who don't like me for me or what I do, but in all of this, I suffered from being loved like it was something that could never happen I mean in my head I thought I was only good for is dying, but college proved me wrong because I have the sweetest bad boy ever and he's been all mine for 4 months and 5 months in February. He is the only one that makes me smile, or even remotely any emotions rather than my usual hole or emptiness.

I wonder what the rest of 2018 has in stock.

If love had a time limit

A book idea



We live for 60 years, no more, no less. 60 years to experience it all and if you fall in love, you're time for death quickens. Seconds ticking for every second you spend with them. Some people don't fall in love and marry people with no intimate feelings to continue on the human race with 60 years or so still around, No one risked losing a second for love.

So why should I be the first?

I will wait for you for as long as you wish.

Parking in Zak's driveway for 10 minutes, Most of the time I think about the last time; I came here, when Zak saved me from my ruthless dad. How he had given me a childhood I never had when he swept me to and how he changed and how I saw him. He wasn't a player. He was Zak, a little rich kid with a big heart. I finally entered the house, little did I know I would be trying to pat my hair down in the mirror, trying to look as innocent as possible. I couldn't shake the feeling or memory of as me and Zak's bodies intertwined and made one of the best dances known to man or woman or both or neither, Zak whispered "I love you."

I  explained calmly and quite sad, that I did have feelings for him, but I had a title, a game and a revenge plan to uphold. After spending so long looking at the floor, I looked at him in he's crystal eyes. I told him not to wait, but Zak held me close, kissing my forehead delicately. "I will wait for you for as long as you wish." She let out of shaky breath. "As a friend or as more. I will always be here." 

Bubblegum Girl.

How do people see gender, they choose to love? I see colourful people in a sea of dark solitude. Females are colourful ones. I tuck my pastel blue hair behind my pointy elf-like ears in hopes of hiding the truth. Being one of the most popular girls, it's hard to be the real you in fear of falling off your throne. In high school, rumours spread like wildfire, but never has one been spread so quickly and for once it's about me.

"your gay?" A pretty girl with long blonde and puffy, glossed lips.

"Of course not!" I snapped, rolling my eyes, But I wasn't looking at her no more. I stared longingly at the shy girl, she had pink hair in a messy bun as always, thick round glasses covering her icy blue eyes with pale skin and freckles. 

If only I didn't have a kingdom to protect. 

~Jin-San~